Time And Time Again

time and time again
I cut myself with blades from my past.

time and time again
my mind slips under all to fast.

time and time again
I hate the heartbeat beneath my skin

time and time again
this mind game I just cannot win.

time and time again
I look for ways to be able to stay

time and time again
the drugs take my mind faraway.

time and time again
I wish I found peace in a friend

time and time again
I find there’s only having to pretend.

time and time again
I feel my illness is life’s sentence

time and time again
this guilt rules my whole existence

time and time again
I find that being is only because I’m no quitter

time and time again
I just feel so mad and bitter.

time and time again
I hate myself for staying here

time and time again
I won’t end it for feeling fear.

time and time again
I lock myself inside my room

time and time again
I find my mind drown in my doom.

time and time again
I have hope for a little while

time and time again
reality reminds me, takes my smile.

time and time again
this is my harsh, violent truth

time and time again
I blame it on the tears of my youth.

time and time again
this is my destined dying end.